[Repeat] All I Want

All I want is to walk with love in my heart, always.

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That is all. I care for nothing else.

I do not have concern for any other things, ideas, or thoughts, because there is nothing else that matters more.

There can be difficulty with this, but there must also be love in my heart.

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There can even be cruelty and violence and chaos and crime, but there must also be love in my heart.

There can be sin and aggression and hatred and limitations and disappointments and failure and death and destruction and tyranny and enslavement, sure, but there must also be love in my heart.

There can be my anger, whatever, but there must also be room for love in my heart.

There can be my grief, of course, but there must also be room for love in my heart.

Let love be both our first and final words.

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Love has the power to encompass it all. That is why love is more powerful than all these other things. Nothing else can encompass all things, for nothing else can encompass all that is love.

So very simply, love is all I ask for because love all I want.

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In life, I point my own way. and my aim is a singular one;

my goal is to walk, no matter what, with love in my heart.

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2018.01.08.

Eternity: Yr lookin’ at it

Eternity is happening right here. Are you serious? Where else did you think it was happening? Some other time than this?

Guys.

Eternity is all of time. It includes this.

Duh. Yes! Right now.

Look where you are. It’s right there! Eternity!

Are you listening to it? Did you notice? Really? I don’t know if you did. You thought it was weird I even brought it up! Maybe it was just the face you made, but I saw it and might not have been all nice. I’m in eternity too, you know. Just sayin’

Have you tried to really feel it? All of time happening at once. Can you expand yourself to notice all of it? Further and further, in every direction, engulfing time, yet being engulfed by time. By the fire light of breathing through this. “Life.”

I try to give eternity it’s due diligence. At least once a day I try to notice. Before I turn out the lights, I thank my surroundings, and I notice. When the breeze sweeps across my face, I notice. When else is eternity but here?

You thought eternity was behind a gate? Well, sure. It’s behind any gate. It’s all of time, and technically, space is energy in time, so it’s behind fields and mountains too for that matter. Eternity as a soul? Yeah. I don’t know what part I said that disagreed with you.

I think somebody told you eternity wasn’t given to you, that it can’t be where ever it is that you are. You think where you are and where you go is stupid or boring or something. Pointless, sometimes. Is that true?

Now, I don’t know you. I don’t know where you go, but, just as a matter of physics, I’m telling you: it’s got to be where you’ve been too. It just has to. That’s the thing about eternity! It always will!

So you can be confident, that your effort in this moment is absolutely not in vain or in any sense wasted. It is eternal in this moment, and the next moment, or any next moment, or literally any moment. Eternity is going to be here for you, that’s just what it does. Like, forever.

For real though. When were you and eternity ever separate? Did you break up? Did you fight?

Well, I don’t know about all that. But… Just being honest. That’s not what I heard from Eternity.

2017.03.20

 

[poem] What’ll we do when we can’t?

World,
what are we going to do when we can’t get high anymore?
What will we say when we see we’ve never really Climbed before!
And that this whole time
we’ve been getting in line on the floor, or
hiking on bodies, stepping on faces we know.

When will we learn
to want what is difficult?

The belt I fought the hardest for
meant the most.
It’s not an American Dream, play cool, candid, wait to be seen.

I say:
The day is the shortest part of these 24 hours,
love the sun as much as you can in every one.
– fog never matters! Give yourself to your tasks,
Give yourself to your people, And like a good

lover, you will Radiate that which you love,

the sun, That which has given light to all life
that has existed On this Earth
while it did exist

And that’s why I write you all,

World.

for three years I see a sun setting, We’re in danger
for too long we’ve been acting as though we’re strangers
for one reason we believed we needed to be, but we, indeed

are not the threat to be afraid of. It’s in triangles and dark ice
that we should follow our eyes, hand in hand, to understand
that great and terrible loss we’ve had when we had separated
former enemies when we were coldly serrated,

but today becoming forever more cohesive and coherent
a cosmic tidal wave of wonder, without a leader to steer it
the murmur of starlings never question but move when they feel it
feathers and spray of salty mist can’t contain it’s expansive
awareness known to any who near it.

I tell you: it all happens under one sky!
the most boring of days to the one when you die, never far
from all that has happened and the day that you read of it.
whatever you want to know and the moment you know it,
so talk to the father like you’ve only just met. Ask mother

why it had to be like this and she’ll tell you, oh they’ll all tell you
You already know. What was it,

what was it in you that made this necessary, if you were ever going

to learn this is your world? YOUR world. And that one should love it as such.

2013.02.29

And Though I Walk Through the Valley

The beauty of this phrase lies in the “though.”

Which means ‘despite,’

‘and yet,’ it also means ‘outside of,’

though.

In a way it is ‘in spite,’ as if it is not even happening at all,

as though I am somewhere else.

Hm.

As though I am still on the mountain, sitting lotus at the peak,

enshrined in the closest, most intimate rays of pure sun, the bright

golden light above all clouds.

As though I were up there

breathing that breathless breath of AWE

and clear heightened expansive awareness;

I walk through

the valley

of death,

the Shadow of death

my feet keep walking, step by step, through these horrors

of a cruel world, a bad idea gone out of control, a dream

I am at once utterly, completely, whole heartedly,

breathlessly, speechlessly

ABOVE IT.

Mm.

I only know the light of skies

and the summit of earth

that’s all i want to carry with me.

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2016.11.20